Grey Days and Cold Nights

Today was rainy and cold. And yet, I was in a relaxed good mood. Surprisingly so... I seem to be in this pattern where I'm relaxed and calm all day, until about 9pm and then I panic, get tired, and get into a horrible crabby mood. I suppose I should just go to be earlier, right? That would make sense if only I could come up with that brilliant idea at the time.

Things are bound to get more stressful pretty soon here. Hopefully we won't let them, but we'll see if we're successful with that. My conference is next week in Canada.... we don't have travel plans, we don't have lodging, my poster is nowhere near ready... and yet I'm calm. I don't know what it is, but I feel like I've done everything I can and what happens from here on out is just going to be or not going to be... nothing I can do about it. Of course, I haven't done everything I can in regards to this poster, so I could be getting really anxious about it, but I'm not... yet... ask me again after 9pm, though and it's a different story entirely!

My plan is to work on it this evening and get some business cards printed up this weekend. Then, on Monday of next week I'll get some help from a colleague (Darling's Daddy, who is AMAZING) and maybe on Tuesday I'll ask for opinions at work... and then, at the end of the week, off we go to Canada! I think I'm oddly seeing this as more of a vacation than a work trip... and I'm okay with that! It's all about the experience, right?

Oh, and also we'll be doing two insems, probably one late Sunday and one late Monday but we'll see. We're having issues with our OPKs. The last two boxes have been crappy and not reliable. We may decide to get more, or just go with other signs. We'll see. Again, here I am feeling relaxed about things.... strange!

Mid-Week Update

Alright, I'm not so good at getting the pictures up. Things are still a bit frazzled around here and we've yet to find that speculum. The swimmers are chillin [at least we hope they are chillin] in our room and we're trying to plan our next step.

Work is good. Earlier last week we hit our first major hurdle and here we are on the other side. It's a good thing and I'm grateful. Darling is adorable as ever and I have a new favorite photo of her as of thirty minutes ago. Too cute.

With internship applications in we have one less monkey on our backs. Now it's the poster presentation and travel plans for the upcoming conference. Here's hoping we get it all figured out soon and I'll be hanging out with my sister before Thanksg.ving!

Look at these chompers!

Aren't they huge?! Little Darling is growing like mad! Her hair is thickening and getting longer, her body is getting longer [and thicker!] and those cheeks! Chubby Bunny!

Speaking of I'll have more bunny photos soon, pre-I'm-so-over-this-Heather meltdown.

Oh and a great story for you - we've missed o AND managed to loose our speculum! Who looses a speculum?!

Sad Bunny Foo-Foo.

Wow, if I thought our dog could work the pity card I was wrong. There are hardly words to describe how determined and focused our sweet-tempered Darling can be. When she is done, she is DONE. This girl knows how to work a situation.

Isn't this the most pitiful bunny you've ever seen? Oh my goodness, it breaks my heart. Luckily enough this was the end of the photo shoot and she was super happy again as soon as we were finished. Funny girl. Can hardly believe she's nearly five months old already.

Happy bunny pictures to come, still sharing with family.

Sir Pouts A Lot.

Have you ever seen a bigger pout?!

Darlin'Diggity'Dog

Poor Diggity. He's been wearing clothes for six weeks, since his surgery. I think that he really learned to like having a t-shirt on because tonight Kathryn took his off and he's SO mad!

He's giving her the look of death, pouting and trying to duck in-between my legs and hide [hers too despite his focused death stares].

It's funny but kind of pitiful too. Poor little bubbers, he looks so funny naked again!

Of course he can't wear clothes forever, he gets way too dirty and seriously, he's. a. dog. But he is pretty darn cute and I doubt I would have changed things before he'd grown back all of his under-arm fur. As it is he's probably got 2/3 of it back, it's just density and length we're waiting for.

Cute little trouble maker. At least she waited until bedtime, he'll get upstairs, curl under his blanket and forget all about that terrible frankenstein t-shirt.

Tomorrow is Halloween!

My commute to work today was better than usual. I saw little people costume clad happily trailing along behind their parents. It was adorable. Kids love dressing up and pretending so much. I love that about Halloween.

The last two Halloweens were spent with those adorable twins across town. This year Darling is 4.5 months old and dressed festively but not yet costumed. Her aunt wanted to send something but the mailcarrier hasn't delivered anything for her.

Our swimmers arrive today as well. This afternoon we'll process some of our New Orleans trip with the young ladies that accompanied us. Actually I'm planning to have them do all the processing in the form of a video I have a zillion clips they can work with.

More photos to come - happy hallows eve [not devil's n.ght as they celebrate where I grew up, uggh].

Rainy Gray Day.

It's rainy in Boston.

Today they shipped our swimmers.

The last six weeks have been really tough around our house.

1. We've had two unsuccessful iui's [the last a complete surprise].
2. K's been super busy at work.
3. Dear lil'Darling is sick, so things have been different at work for me [luckily not bad though].
4. Internship applications are due.
5. I've gained weight because I'm so frustrated with two failures in a row.

And this gray day, Darling's poo-pooing her nap and my taking on more than I can enjoyably chew [in the form of little projects, recipes, a baby shower, hosting Thanksgiving, trying to lose this added weight, and on and on] led me to a movie afternoon.

Generally I'm not much of a tv person. To be honest, we don't even own a television. Haven't for almost five years now. But I LOVE movies. Love them. Even with that, I don't watch them at work. Ever. At all.

Today was a movie day.

After having swim lesson number four with Darling, getting notice that the swimmers are on their way, I jumped into a favorite, Bridget Jones' Diary. Just played it on my computer while I steamed vegetables and made chicken soup.

You know what's great about BJD? The characters are so lovable. Their honesty, kindness, warmth - and that chemistry. It just works for me. But you know why it really works for me? It's us. Kathryn is Mark Darcy. She's quiet and tough and sweet and warm and beautiful and amazing and just melts your heart. And I don't like to admit that I can identify with Bridget Jones. Just a bit. But when it comes to Kathryn, my Mark Darcy? I'm 100% smitten Bridget!

Now if I could just get to my inner[bridget]size, I could relax and enjoy this beautiful, warm, loving life I have!